tomorrow is father’s day, and to celebrate my wonderful husband, the best father in the entire world, i allowed him to watch our children for three hours while i went to the spa. i know, right? i am DEFINITELY going to win the wife of the year award. i guess i can add this to sleepfarting and fake pee on the list of reasons why i love my husband.
no, seriously though, my back is effed up. i woke up this morning and i could hardly move. sei was gone all week, so i spent most of that time lugging my kids, groceries, library books, and assorted other crap up three flights of stairs. so yeah, i had some major tension to work out.
i had the most heavenly massage at an aveda spa, a magical place that doesn’t smell like chihuahua and where there are absolutely no tiny little hands slapping my boobs. i wonder if that’s a service they offer? i might have to look into that. after my massage i went to take a hot, relaxing shower (all by myself), and got in with my underwear on. schweet.
so if you saw me running errands after my massage and steam shower today, i hope you took the time to notice that i had absolutely NO panty lines. none whatsoever.
after having been effectively single last week while sei was on a business trip, i will say this: i am not meant to be alone. the physical part of single motherhood, i could handle just fine. i still got my kids out of the house–it just took thirteen times longer than when he’s around to help–i still was able to get them bathed and into bed by a decent hour, and i was still able to do all the things a mother does, even though my partner wasn’t anywhere to be found.
but i was so, so lonely. the emotional stuff, i couldn’t handle alone. there was no one to cuddle me at night while i complained about how hard my life was. there was no one to pour me a glass of diet pepsi when my butt was glued to the couch at the end of the day, when that glass of diet pepsi was pretty much the only thing standing between me and utter insanity. there was no one to dance with me in the kitchen when the kids were FINALLY asleep and i felt like a woman instead of just a mom.
and THAT is why, i realized, i really need a man in my life. because the “mother” stuff? i’m pretty much good with that. but the “other” stuff? well, you’re gonna think i’m a cliched fool, but in the “other” stuff, sei completes me.
happy father’s day. and single mothers? you have my undying respect.
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